Sunday, May 8, 2016

a month in review | april twenty-sixteen




SNAPSHOTS

-  celebrating clarissa's wedding! we danced the night away, and it was magical.
-  okc has the best coffee shops.
-  hey spring, you're pretty.
-  fishing has begun! we have been to the lakes around wichita at least twice a week during april.




MOMENTS + LESSONS + HAPPENINGS + REALIZATIONS

-  the month began with the celebration of my soul sistah's wedding! jared and i had so much fun in oklahoma. we drank so much good coffee and made great memories.

-  i have no willpower when cake is involved.

-  if you're on instagram, you likely saw the craziness at the beginning of the month regarding the new algorithm and such. i was so annoyed with the entire situation that i turned off all my notifications on insta. all of 'em. and you guys - it has been so freeing! i always wanted to know who was liking my photos and when i got a new follower and new comments and holy moly - why? why did i feel that need to be connected all the flippin' time?

-  around the middle of the month, i started bleeding even though it wasn't time for my period. it was a rough two weeks because i not only had this crazy abnormality, but i caught a bad cold, which led to me bruising a rib from such violent coughing. i had moments of complete breakdown - tears, crying out to God. i never asked why. i just wanted healing. i went in for an ultrasound, and it was discovered that i had a cyst on my left ovary. these are common, so i'm not too worried. [if you've had a cyst before, would you mind emailing me?] they also found a "mass-like area adjacent to my right ovary". i am going in for a ct scan tomorrow so they can get a better image of it. my doctor isn't too worried about it, but prayers are appreciated.

-  more than anything, i have to praise God. last september, i noticed a lump in my left breast. i went in for an ultrasound, which showed a tumor known as a fibroadenoma. it measured on the larger side for what was normal, so i was referred to a breast surgeon. well, i never made that appointment because i was in the middle of searching for a new job and then i finally got one. i promised jared that i'd make an appointment after tax season. so last week, i had another ultrasound done to see what it was like now. for about a month prior to this, i had been praying for healing. i noticed that it felt smaller, but was i imagining it all? as the ultrasound tech was doing her thang, she seemed confused. so much so that she called in the resident to take a look. you guys. IT. WAS. GONE. PRAISE HIM!! they were flabbergasted, but i serve a mighty God who hears my prayers and performs miracles! this has given me hope with my current circumstance. He is faithful and healing is coming!



APRIL GOALS

well, the only goal i accomplished was watching my soul sistah marry the love of her life. that really wasn't a goal, but it made it to the list, so hey - one is better than none. with all the craziness of the last four weeks, i've had my perspective changed. my focus is less on to-do's and more on moments. the waiting for results forced me to face the fact that i haven't been living a life of worship lately. yes - on sundays and wednesday nights, but what about the rest of the days? i was comfortable in my routine, and i thank God for the disruption. it has spurred my into His arms of grace and love. He is so, so good.












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