J A N U A R Y   

-  welcomed the new year with a lovely case of hives. i had to continue my dairy-free diet for awhile, but i'm good now.
-  i started getting jackson on a nighttime sleeping schedule, which freed me up to start having actual me time.
-  jackson turned seven months old! has said his first word - DADA. [of course he would. ha!]

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  F E B R U A R Y  

-  jared got a new position at work as an inspector.
-  spent most evenings playing with jackson + watching the winter olympics.
-  jackson turned eight months old!

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  M A R C H  

-  celebrated three years of marriage!
-  spring made its grand entrance, and all the people said amen.
-  jackson turned nine months old!

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  A P R I L  

-  after praying for over a year, jared was transferred back to first shift this month!
-  we moved in with my sister-in-law + her family.
-  jackson turned ten months old!

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  M A Y  

-  jackson took his first steps this month.
-  we still lived with my SIL + her family.
-  jackson turned eleven months old!

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  J U N E  

-  started the renovation on our home. the day before, we found out i was pregnant.
-  khloe kardashian tweeted me. no big deal. :)
-  we celebrated jackson's first year!

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  J U L Y  

-  we lost our baby in my womb. it was/is hard to understand. but i'm learning that i don't need to. i just need Jesus.
-  we celebrated the fourth of july with a camping trip to el dorado + fireworks with family.
-  the house was coming along, and i never, ever knew how stressful choosing paint colors would be.
-  we visited the new library, and it was so beautiful. i kinda want to live there.

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  A U G U S T  

-  the podcast mentioned me on the podcast, and it made my year!
-  i celebrated my 32nd birthday.

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  S E P T E M B E R  

-  i received my first summons for jury duty, but i never had to serve.
-  i purchased my first cookbook, and it started a fun, new hobby of loving to cook.
-  bought my set of oils! i still love them, even if i don't share about them a lot.

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  O C T O B E R  

-  i survived the tax deadline. little did i know it would be my last!
-  we took jackson to the pumpkin patch. he had a blast.
-  we ventured down to oklahoma for short trip to see my family. jackson loves running around there!
-  i started my new job at MCU!

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  N O V E M B E R  

-  jackson got his first hair cut.
-  ate at my first food truck.
-  we celebrated thanksgiving with family + food.

  D E C E M B E R  

-  drove around + looked at christmas lights while drinking a delicious latte with the fam-bam.
-  I GOT TO PET A PENGUIN. still can't believe it.
-  celebrated christmas with family + it was one of my favorites to date.

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  N E W  J O B  

i have been at the credit union for a little over a month now. it's so great to be back! [i previously worked at mcu for six months right after jared + i got married]. having that prior experience made the transition much easier than i expected. my co-workers are fun + helpful. and goodness, there's always food! the only drawback to my new job is the commute. traffic is always a nightmare, but next year, we are moving our headquarters (where i work) downtown, so it won't be as bad! (i initially typed something about being a working girl downtown, but that made me sound like a hooker instead of an accounting associate. ha!)

  J A C K S O N  

jackson is seventeen months. he is feisty + sweet + always on the go. we recently gave him his first haircut. he looks like a big boy, and my heart simultaneously aches + bursts when i see him now. while this age is really, really exhausting, it's also really fun. he understands a lot of what we are saying now, so when i point to things or say something, he comprehends it instead of looking at me like i have five heads. he can say nine words - mama, dada, baba (his cup), nana (bananas/my mom), papa, bubble, bible, tyler, and juice.

in the last month, jackson had croupe + then another virus two weeks later. i am fully aware that he is going to get sick, but it would help if other parents would use some common (and courteous!) sense and keep their sick children at home. i'm really thankful that my in-laws + niece don't mind watching jackson when he has a cold. there are many challenges to being a working mom, and having a sick kid is one of the top stressors. but i've made my peace with the fact that jackson is a walking germ ball, so sickness if inevitable.

i will admit though that when he was sick last week, he wanted me to hold him all evening. i happily obliged. i was watching tv and looked down to find him asleep in my arms. i don't ever want him to be sick, but my heart was bursting during that hour + a half that he was asleep on me. it reminded me of this time last year when i'd rock him to sleep after nursing. when those memories flood my memory or my FB timeline, i have to choke the tears back. i look back on that season of my life with a sort of fondness. at the time, it was hard. really, really hard. but it was still good.

  R A N D O M S  

-  i'm learning that motherhood is hard, but "hard" doesn't mean that something is wrong; it just means it's hard.

-  i made a strawberry pretzel salad for thanksgiving, and it was a hit! my MIL informed me that i am required to bring that to thanksgiving + christmas from now on. not gonna lie, i was really happy everyone liked it. i lovelovelove to bake, but i'm always nervous for other people to try my desserts. it possibly has to do with the time i was baking peanut butter cookies, and i had my mom try the batter. she made a horrid face. how much salt did you add?! we looked at the recipe and nearly fell over with laughter when we realized my mistake - it called for one teaspoon, not one cup of salt. oops. (in my defense, i was young. it's why i now triple check a recipe when it calls for a teaspoon/tablespoon/cup!). i also baked two pumpkin pies for the first time, and they turned out great. (well from what i was told - it's not my favorite dessert).

-  it seems like it has snowed a lot lately. it's not even officially winter yet, and i want to cancel winter already.

-  we watched fantastic beasts + loved it! i saw a lot of negative reviews of the movie online the next day, and i'm just overly annoyed with everyone being offended + highly critical of every stinking thing. i'm in favor of constructive criticism, but social media has convinced everyone to share every little offense or dislike.

-  i have been drinking tea in the afternoons at work, and it is a small thing, but it brings me joy.

-  we are still loving our new home. we switched jackson's bedroom + the spare bedroom for now because his bedroom was getting too cold with the door shut. i cannot wait for it to get warm again so that we can start up our evening walks again.

-  i recently have been trying new recipes. this mexican lasagna was delicious! this creamy beef pasta was not.