Sunday, October 6, 2019

socks with sandals + the coming of fall




-  well kansas finally feels like fall! we had our first fire of the season with our neighbors + it as glorious.

-  i'm seriously considering buying an instant pot.

-  there is a new hunger games book (prequel) coming out. i will read it for sure because i loved the trilogy. i read those books right as they were becoming popular, and it brings back some nostalgia. i remember going to the first three movies by myself, which i did a lot before i met jared.

-  i surprised jackson with new dinosaur socks. the next morning, i asked him to put his shoes on. it was chilly outside (finally!) so i meant actual shoes. he walked in to show me he put his dinosaur socks on with sandals. i laughed about it all day.

-  i bought a book of crossword puzzles this week. for fun. ya know, as one does.

-  31 signs you were an early 2000s VSCO girl.  //  i relate to 95% of these.

-  i kinda went on a mini twitter rant about motherhood.

-  the reverie transformed into luke's diner three years ago this week. what a magical morning that was.

-  we ventured over to a little area near our house to show jackson what fishing is. he liked when jared caught the fish - he waved + said hi to each one - but he did not want to be close to them. we had fun watching daddy fish, and then we took a walk. it was a random, last-minute plan, but those are always the best kind.



Sunday, September 29, 2019

branson + crackle nail polish + abandoned leftovers




-  whenever i ask for a leftover box at a restaurant, i always, always, ALWAYS forget it on the table! i did it again today, and i don't understand why i do this, but gahhhhh. i'm hopeless. (jared has learned to look at the table after i walk away. he saved the day - and my pasta.)

-  hilarie burton is out here makin' me alllllll emotional with her OTH tweet. i love that tv shows/movies/book/music can bring the strongest nostalgic feelings from specific times in our lives. i watched OTH during my early twenties, and i remember watching it while i would blog (when blogging was at its peak - before it was all about numbers + ads + selling crap) or after a breakup or just whenever. that intro song hits me riiiiiiight in my feels.

-  we took friday off and headed to branson for the weekend. it was my first time there, and i had a lot of fun! we spent saturday at silver dollar city as well. at the last minute - literally 30 minutes - we decided to take jackson with us. i can't really explain why. i just knew he would have a lot of fun, even if he won't remember it. (i was right. that kid was so happy, except for a couple of gnarly meltdowns.)

-  this article about random 2010s fads made me laugh, especially the 'crackle nail polish'. i found this old photo on my IG from 2012. man- what a trip to look back at my old photos.

-  i found a transformer in branson, so naturally i had to vacay pose with him.

-  jackson slept in our bed during the trip. i was not sure how it would work because i typically never sleep well when he sleeps with us, but it was fine. (i did wake up to find that i had somehow stolen his blanket during the night. i felt so bad and quickly covered him up. LOL. this brings me to my next musing-

-  jared + i do not share a big comforter/duvet when we sleep. i have my own blanket(s) + he has his. i am not sure if other couples are able to sleep under the same covers, but we cannot.

-  i retired #notpolethursdays this week on instagram. it was fun for a season. i had a random idea last week for a different poll series. i'm still working on a name, but it will mostly be polls about different things that give us all the feels. like last week, i asked everyone their opinions on the new 'saved by the bell' re-make. (me? no zach morris = no bueno.)


Sunday, September 22, 2019

bullet journaling + a train ride + thrifting




-  i finished recursion and DANG. best book of 2019!

-  i was so stressed at work earlier this week. i felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest, and i was short of breath. i was letting the stress eat away at me so much that my body was reacting. i sat back + realized what was happening. (i'm not really one to get stressed a lot, by the way) and i saw it for what it was - the enemy was trying to steal my joy. he's been doing it for so long, in the most subtle of ways. it's something i realized recently and have been praying about a lot. john 10:10 says he wants to kill + destroy me. his tactics aren't sword-like weapons, but whispers here + there. i have to hold it up to Scripture + remember the Truth.

-  i started a new bullet journal this week. [see previous bu-jo here] this is the journal i'm using because moleskine just does it right when it comes to quality.

-  i always forget that i have a FB page for this blog. here is the link if you're interested.

-  trader joe's opens in three weeks, and I AM SO EXCITED.

-  my e-book library hold came in for the first veronica mars book. i like it so far.

-  i will be making this PB pumpkin bread soon!

-  on saturday evening, we ventured down to watson park for a pre-dinner stroll. jackson had so much fun, although the train scared him a lot. the next morning, he woke up and all he could talk about was riding the train. so we went back to the park after church, and he had a blast! he was brave + it made my heart happy.

-  we also went to open streets ICT for a little bit. next time, we know to start further down douglas where more of the food trucks are.

-  i don't talk about oils very much anymore. mostly because people don't really want to hear about it. i started using oils a year ago, and while i looooove the oils themselves, the "business" side has me more like mehhhh. i tried to sell them, but it's so oversaturated that it didn't seem realistic. (there were other things that turned me off as well). i just ordered more oils this week (my OG, lavender + new-to-me, northern lights black spruce) and my mom ordered a started kit. so i'm at the point where i just wanna keep it fun.

-  i really want to try thrifting. i know some people who are so skilled at this. i need someone to teach me their ways.


Sunday, September 15, 2019

mary berry + butter beer cake




-  the week back to work after vacation is roooooooough. mostly the first two days.

-  i started reading recursion by blake crouch, and OMG. this book! it's gooooood.

-  when the weather decides to not be a blazing inferno, i am going to make this harry potter pumpkin juice!

-  the duchess + mary berry are the duo we never knew we needed!

-  speaking of the royals- i follow elizabeth holmes on instagram because her posts about their fashion just makes me so happy. i'm not particularly obsessed with the royal family, but i enjoy her take on a lot of their happenings.

-  i recently started following phylicia masonheimer on IG. she has challenged me + encouraged me in my faith. mostly in the area of scripture + knowing what i believe, but also exposing myself to other viewpoints so that i can defend/discuss my side effectively. i really resonated with this post she wrote on IG this week.

-  why do all of my holds for library e-books come in all at once every. single. time?!

-  milkfloat has a butter beer cake that is LEGIT.

-  i drive by this place every morning and never knew what it was. when i saw there were a bajillion sunflowers, i knew we had to go on an adventure. so on friday night, we loaded in the car with my sister-in-law + nephew and went exploring. turns out, it's a wetlands park!

-  i was reading a post on IG where a woman was listing things about herself, and she mentioned that she's a "full-time mom". i'm sorry. are there part-time moms out there? how does one become demoted? i so wish we could change the language + stigmas + comparisons around motherhood. our moms may have dealt with this on some level, but for us- social media makes mothering so dang hard sometimes. everyone is trying to prove how great of a mother they are, and it's exhausting.

-  lest you think that i have all of my life together, i just ordered jackson's birth certificate this week. he's two. oops.

Sunday, September 8, 2019

doc martens + you've got mail




-  jared + i were on vacation this week. it was nice + relaxing. we never slept in, but we made some money from a garage sale + bought a new table + chairs for our dining room + took lots of naps. it was seriously the best to spend all week with my boys.

-  we drove down to my parents' house on monday to pick up jackson. i found my doc martens from twenty years ago. two decades. i remember driving to tulsa with my mom to buy them. she always did things like that when i was growing up. i wanted something, and she made it happen. mom, i know you're reading this. thank you. you are seriously the best.

-  yet again, i think i've mis-typed my enneagram number.

-  i watched you've got mail  for the first time ever this week. it was . . . good. i think i watched it too late to really appreciate the awesomeness of 90s chick flicks. i did  like it though.

-  my parents celebrated 38 years of marriage this week.

-  we had a date night on thursday + tried a local mediterranean restaurant. it was delish!

-  jared's 'instagram husband' skills are improving. [here is proof.]

-  i tried this dark chocolate bar from dillon's (kroger) this week, and now i'm obsessed with all things toffee.


Sunday, September 1, 2019

my beeday + veronica mars + myspace




-  i made these banana cookies this week, and they were legit.

-  our internet froze one night, and the tv stopped working. jackson said, "what happened?" and it made us laugh because he is learning + talking so much more as the days progress.

-  jackson is staying with my parents this weekend. jared + i woke up at 7am on sunday, so that means we are officially old. but we've had good rest these couple days.

-  speaking of getting older, i turned thirty-three this weekend. every single plan we tried to make failed. we had originally wanted to go on a tropical vacay, but then a big house repair happened. (our plans would have been thwarted by the hurricane, so it's for the best that it didn't pan out.) then we decided colorado would be out next best option, and another house repair took that trip out of the picture. we finally settled on OKC, and then jared came down with a gnarly case of poison ivy. so we cancelled everything, and jackson went to my parents' house. it was a super low-key birthday, but that's fine by me.

-  ugly halloween sweaters are a thing, and i am here for it.

-  i finally binged all seasons of veronica mars + the movie + the season on hulu. and THEN i found out that there were also two books written by the creators of v-mars, so now i have both of them on hold at the library for my kindle.

-  jared + i were talking about myspace the other day. i kinda miss it. i was always tweaking my profile + changing the song to match my mood + taking surveys.

Saturday, August 31, 2019

thirty two things in year thirty two.




1.  no matter what tomorrow brings, whether heartache or happiness, Jesus is still better.

2.  i took lots of photos of flowers. no one is surprised by this. not in the least.

3.  we lost our second + third babies via miscarriage.

4.  one of my favorite memories from this year will be us going into applebee's to eat dinner and realizing we were in wrong restaurant AFTER we got our menus. still so dang funny.

5.  i learned that motherhood is hard, but hard doesn't mean something is wrong; it's just hard.

6.  my faith was rocked. (see #3). there are questions i never thought i would ask God. but healing is happening. i have been a believer for over a decade, but when i had my third miscarriage, everything i thought knew came into question. i never once questioned if He is real or anything along those lines. but i had an awakening. despite the incredibly difficult circumstances, there has been good come from it.

7.  when i'm having a crappy day (or even a great one) - i make a list of what i'm grateful for. whether it's big or small, naming the good forces me to look outside of my circumstances and if i'm being honest, away from my self-centeredness.

8.  i left my job at the accounting office. i never, ever thought it would happen. after some unfortunate happenings, i knew i wouldn't be there long term. then a position opened up at a local credit union, and i knew it was time to move on. i have really enjoyed my new job. great people, great company.

9.  our childcare changed a couple times this year, and i was always so worried how it was all going to work out. but God answered every single time, usually before i had a chance to ask.

10.  i learned to check the weather before driving to oklahoma. i got caught in a severe thunderstorm for three hours, and it was terrifying.

11.  i was featured on wichita life ICT.

12.  i learned that it's okay to not finish a book. and it's okay to only read books that i want to read, but just what's popular on bookstagram.

13.  jared + i celebrated four years of marriage.

14.  after jared's grandma died, we heard story after story of how she loved spending time with everyone. it made us all realize that family get-togethers matter to someone.

15.  i got to pet a penguin, and it was one of the highlights of my year for sure!

16.  i fell in love with cooking + baking. i'm definitely not a pro, but i enjoy finding new recipes.

17.  jared + i sometimes have "couch dates" where he plays video games + i read a book/blog/etc. this may not sound like much of a date, but we actually still have meaningful conversations. (we are having a couch date at i type this blog post!)

18.  we bought our home - officially! it has been fun (most of the time) making this space ours.

19.  veronica mars officially became my favorite tv show ever.

20.  i received my first summons for jury duty, but ended up not having to serve.

21.  we celebrated jackson's second birthday.

22.  lot of time was spent on the pergola that jared built.

23.  i learned that just because people are loud about stuff on social media doesn't mean that they are the majority. loud sometimes means you're just loud. that's it.

24.  after years of talking about it, i finally launched wichita collective on instagram. it has been so fun to connect with others in our community + support local businesses.

25.  communication is key, in any relationship - marriage, work, friendship, etc.

26.  essential oils are cool. i like using them. but that's as far as it goes for me.

27.  experienced some firsts:  gave jackson his first haircut. visited my first food truck + trader joe's.

28.  i love podcasts so much. i almost want to start one of my own. but i won't. but i wanna.

29.  i have successfully kept plants alive all year.

30.  it's okay to grieve. it's also okay to grieve while doing things i love. healing comes in many forms.

31.  learned/learning - "He is before all things, and in Him all things hold together." [colossians 1:17]

32.  Jesus is where the joy is.