Sunday, October 25, 2020

currently // october 2020

creating:  my newsletter. here is october's.

baking:   these cookies + this baked oatmeal

drinking:  at this very moment, a pumpkin spice latte.

snacking:  bell peppers with cream cheese + everything bagel seasoning

reading:  i just finished "american royals" and to my surprise, i LOVED it! 

listening:  "nine perfect strangers" on audio. it is slooooow, but i'm hoping it picks up soon. 

watching:  the blacklist, season seven. 

wishing:  there was no snow coming in tonight.

anticipating:  halloween! it's more fun now that jackson is excited about it.

enjoying:  this gratitude journal. such a great daily habit to utilize against discontentment.

wondering:  if i should start up #notpolethursdays on instagram again.

loving:  making family traditions.

marveling:  how God is working in our lives, even in the midst of such grief.

needing:  to start a deep clean/declutter of our entire home. 

realizing:  christmas is two months away. GAHHHH. 

wearing:   these comfy pants from target + lots of layers.

making me happy:   puzzles + chai lattes + autumn nights by the fire + game nights + cozy house slippers  

Saturday, July 11, 2020

life + such.

i'm cozied up in my bed, drinking a hot mug of coffee right now. 
it's saturday morning. no plans for the day.
jared has been sick all week. [not the 'rona.].
it has been a good week though. 
i have been digging into the Word a lot lately.
it is my sustenance in this season. 

i looked at the last post i wrote on this blog- the end of april.
it feels like a lifetime ago. 
i was still working from home.
jared was still furloughed.
my grandma was still alive.

i was scrolling though my phone recently to give jared a phone number.
i realized my grandma's phone number is still in my contacts.
i can't bring myself to delete it. not right now.

life has been . . . i don't even know.
the last seven months have been strange. humbling. slightly scary at times. 
but i can still see Beauty sprinkled throughout it all.

i went back to work last month. it was a smooth transition. 
i'm grateful to have a job. 
and i still can't believe this is the view from my cubicle.

though i haven't written here or posted a lot on the socials lately, 
i have been documenting life on a private insta + a private blog. 
it has been one of the best ideas i've had this year.
no one will ever read those words or see the everyday photos. just me.
a way to remember the good + the hard + the in-betweens of life right now.

the internet is so loud right now.
i have unfollowed + muted a lot.
i try to take short breaks each week.
living life untethered from my phone is vital.

i have also been journaling a lot lately.
this practice has also been a great addition to my daily life.

the amount of audiobooks i have been reading is wild, at least for me.
in june, i read five audiobooks. [yes- it is reading.]
eleven days into july, and i've already finished three.
i track all of my books here on goodreads.

jackson turned three at the end of june.
he is wild + strong-willed + hilarious.
we enrolled him in a christian preschool.
i have to surrender this plan to the Lord on a daily basis.
while i would love to stay home with him, it's not possible.
at least- right now. and maybe never.
and i have to ask [daily, hourly, sometimes moment by moment] for peace.
what i know from the past is His faithfulness in every situation, regardless of the outcome. 

i stumbled upon this chocolate chip mug cake + it is heavenly.
cooking + baking have been fun lately. 
i am always on the hunt for something new to try.

well . . . now i'm off to relax for the day.
jared is finally feeling better, but not enough for us to get out today.
i'm fine with that though. rest is much needed after this week.

ok- bye.

Wednesday, April 29, 2020

currently // april 2020

reading  //  the magician's nephew

watching  //  bones + little fires everywhere

listening  //  phoebe reads a mystery + my worship playlist

loving  //  our new greenhouse!

enjoying  //  working from home

drinking  //  lots of water + kombucha (this is my current fav)

cooking  //  meatloaf + potatoes + lots of roasted vegetables

baking  //  this oatmeal bake

making me happy:  tangerine juice from TJs  /  watermelon lip balm  /  spring blooms  /  evening walks after dinner  /  mexican food  /  british accents  /  my new coffee mugs from hearth + hand  /  dry shampoo  /  sleeping in  /  dinner that i didn't have to make  /  the 100 day project  /  my nose ring  /  orange chicken + fried rice from aldi  /  pastel colors

Wednesday, April 8, 2020

i luv u.

all of our windows are open in the house right now.
it's a breezy seventy degrees.
i can see the sunset out my bedroom window.
there are about a dozen birds singing a sweet melody amongst themselves.

this feeling-
it is lovely. peaceful.


i have been working from home for a week now.
i cannot tell you how many times i have thanked the Lord for this.
i prayed + prayed over this for a week before i was told i could stay home + work.
i do not take one minute of it for granted.


we camped at the lake the last couple days.
they were probably the best two days we've had since everything started.
being in nature usually solves most problems.
it's where i feel closest to the Lord.

jackson played on the beach area at the lake.
not a beach, really.
it's kansas.

but there was sand.
and waves.
and it was beautiful.

as i drove home from the lake this morning, i noticed this tank.
or rather- what was written on it.
how many times have i driven by this?
dozens, probably.
for some reason, seeing that "i luv u" made me smile.

had i not been savoring the peaceful drive + my morning coffee, i would have missed it.
rushing around is not a part of life right now.
that is what slowing down will do.
what i once thought was important seems insignificant compared to the joy of the little things.

like a tank in a field on the side of the road, graffitied with a tiny love note.


i have never seen more people taking walks than as of late.
and i think it is wonderful.

i, too, take more walks.
jackson + i take a stroll around the block several times each week after dinner.

i also journal each day.
i pray more.

slowing down has made the little things become meaningful things.


this season of life has been a mixture of all the things.
but we have a choice in the matter.
and for me-
i choose joy.
a good cry, when needed.
an extra cup of coffee.
worship music.
spending most of the evening outside.
taking walks with jackson.
hugging jared a little longer.

all of the little things that are really the big things.

Tuesday, March 31, 2020

i didn't have to put on real pants today.

i got the order to start working from home today. to say that i was excited would be an understatement. i wanted to chronicle this day, mostly because it's such a rare thing. here are some thoughts from my first day working from home:

-  there are going to be kinks to work out at the beginning. i had already decided it wasn't going to work out, and i had only been twenty minutes into the workday. technical difficulties are going to happen. it's best to take a deep breath + know that it will work out.

-  we don't have an office space in our home, so i am working out of the camper. it was a crazy idea at first, but it works! i have privacy. i have my own space. i can listen to music without headphones. i can open the windows + feel the fresh air. it's a pretty great set up right now.

-  i didn't have to put on real pants. i told myself that the first couple days could be very casual. i did put makeup on, but i haven't changed out of my leggings yet. now i am thinking i need some cool house slippers.

-  i need to be better about getting up and taking a break. that's on me. i will do better tomorrow.

-  i am so, so grateful for this opportunity. in my department, it was easiest for me to work from home. i don't take it for granted one bit. the company i work for is so great to allow us to work from home during this insane time.

-  i can pop my head out and see the boys when i want. i love getting to say hi when i go in the house for water or a bathroom break. jared has been furloughed for three weeks, but we are still thankful.

day one was pretty good. the beginning was a little rough, but it all worked out. i discovered this album + listened to it a lot. i drank coffee + diffused oils + refrained from working on my puzzle that's in the camper next to me. now i'm off to drink more coffee on our pergola + enjoy the evening. our lives right now are so weird + insert basically every emotion, but i have felt the Lord so close these past few weeks. He is my joy.

Sunday, March 22, 2020

seven on sunday // 001


last week, i moved into our new corporate offices in downtown wichita. it is surreal. (not to mention amazing because byyyyeeee to k-96 traffic. miss you never.) it's weird to ride on an elevator. it's weird to look out the window and remember i work in a "tower", as jackson calls it. it's weird because it's all new, but i don't take one bit for granted.

  2.  100 DAY PROJECT   

one of my 2020 goals is to participate in the 100 day project. what a perfect time to stretch myself creatively since the world is anything but normal at the moment. my subject for the project is lists. i got the idea from my internet friend, rachel. i purchased these little notebooks for documenting the daily lists, but i also plan to share them on insta-stories somehow.

  3.  PLANT LADY  

i bought two new plants this weekend, and it's safe to say they won't be the last. there's something about plants that brings calm + coziness to our home. i am excited to purchase a plant from a new local shop in wichita. we are also building a greenhouse with our neighbor, and it is going to be so wonderful to walk out to our backyard and grab tomatoes or peppers to eat. 
i bought two new plants over the weekend, and i think i

well, except for this weekend. brrr. but the trees are blooming + you know it makes my heart happy. 

  5.  IS THAT YOU, RONA?  

our lives are anything but normal right now because of the coronavirus. i have lots of opinions, but i have saved all of those for my husband + not for the internet. i will say one thing- as i was discussing all the craziness, i started listing all the people close to us who would be most susceptible to the virus. it was then that i realized this isn't about me anymore. i am doing my part to protect those i love + care about, but i'm still living- with a little more understanding + compassion for those around me. 


i can't remember where i saw this (probably twitter) but the ny times offers a mini crossword on their website every day. i find it challenging + fun to stretch my brain. my best time is one minute!


this is a new series on the blog to replace the weekly musings posts. my hope is that i can blog more now that our lives are . . . i don't even know the way to describe it. i like having a space to reflect on, and i also like sharing things i find or love or whatever. blogging is so different these days, especially for someone who was doing it at the height of the blogging days. (2011-2015ish). i don't really care if i have a ton of readership, but if something i post resonates with someone, that's the real goal here. 

Sunday, February 23, 2020

new trees + snow + a lava lamp.

-  it was predicted that we would receive a "trace" of snow, and i woke up the next morning to two inches of snow. my normal twenty-five minute commute to work ended up taking an hour + fifteen minutes. is it spring yet?

-  we went to the local nursery on saturday to pick out two trees for our yard. we got an oak tree + a blooming apple tree.

-  i have shared this chocolate cake in a mug before, but it needs to be shared again because i make this at least three times a week!

-  jackson randomly said, "amber, you feeling better?" LOL. everyone has been asking me that this week because i was sick for a week. he hears everything!

-  i really want a lava lamp.

-  i had the day off on monday, but i was finally recovering from the flu.

-  we bought a new mower this week, and you will not find a more excited kid than jackson. he loves mowers!

-  our grocery bill was $115 this week! not too shabby if you ask me.

-  these no bake caramel cookie dough bars look legit.

-  not much to really recap this week. it was busy at work + our evenings were usually super chill.