i went in for my 40-week appointment yesterday. i haven't dilated past 1, but i'm 60% effaced. baby has definitely dropped in the last few days. i'm having lots of tightening braxton hicks and pressure, but no significant contractions.

my doctor scheduled us for an induction next friday (the 30th). i'll be totally transparent: my heart sank. i have spent the majority of my life thinking i would want an epidural the second labor started, but after research + talking with a couple friends, i made the decision to birth naturally. inductions do not prevent this from happening, but they certainly increase the chances of outside medical intervention. (the two things i absolutely do not want: epidural and/or c-section.)

i keep reminding myself that at the end of the day, my biggest prayer is a safe + healthy delivery. so here i am, sitting in the tension of boldly declaring that He is able to work all things out for my good while holding my plans loosely at His feet. i know my God is able.  

creating:  allllll the lists. i basically make to-do lists so i can see how long i can procrastinate the tasks.

eating:  salads. ice cream. strawberries. peanut butter sammiches.   

drinking:  i bought a cute cup at target for $5 + i've been guzzling water like crazy. and blackberry lemonade.

reading:  lots of articles related to labor + delivery, of course. 

watching:  all the instagram stories. i am obsessed with 'em.  

anticipating:  oh ya know, giving birth.

enjoying:  leftover cupcakes from my fourth + final baby shower.

marveling:  at the fact that - no matter what - i will have a baby in less than three weeks. what the what?!  

needing:  to pack a hospital bag. install the car seat. order the crib mattress. ha! no big deal. 

learning:  to just smile when people comment on the size of my belly. it's whatever at this point.

celebrating:  finding out at this week's baby appointment that i am 1 cm dilated; 50% effaced!

jared + i found ourselves with a rare weekend with no plans. it turned out to be a weekend of little adventures. and it was the best.

i snapped a couple bump photos. it blows my mind that i will have a baby in my arms in less than three weeks for sure. but we are so ready to meet our little man - even milo is excited!

i woke up around 9. while jared was sleeping, i cleaned the house + enjoyed a slow morning. we then had lunch at rib crib + an afternoon coffee date at verita coffee.

we met some friends at the theater and watched the new mummy movie. afterward, i was craving a cupcake, so we ventured over to smallcakes. [it just opened down the street, less than a minute from our house. it's a blessing + a curse!] we enjoyed the most delicious cupcakes - lemon for him, peanut butter for me - and then headed home to relax for a couple hours. we ended the evening with a game night with two of our couple friends.

jared looked over at me after everyone left, and said, "i had a great day with you babe."
these little moments - they are what i will remember in the years to come. random saturday adventures with my love. this is the life, i tell ya.