Wednesday, January 31, 2018

A MONTH IN REVIEW // JANUARY 2018





MOMENTS + HAPPENINGS


-  our niece got married at the beginning of the month, so we ventured out + ate cake + had a great time. saturdays are usually our date nights, but we decided to have a night in, and it was so wonderful. i read + rocked jackson to sleep while jared sat next to me.

-  jared was offered a new position at work! while this doesn't mean a shift change at the moment, it's a greater stepping stone to being back on first shift eventually. bonus: he will be training on first shift for a month!

-  i read four books: eleanor oliphant is completely fine  |  the woman in cabin 10  |  the lying game  |  chasing slow

-  i rang in the year with a horrible case of hives. jackson seems to be able to tolerate dairy now, but apparently i am allergic to it now. i am hoping that i just added it back into my diet too quickly [aka: too much]. i have been back on a mostly dairy-free diet, so we will see how it goes.

jackson turned seven months old!



LESSONS + REALIZATIONS 


::  after months + months of trying, striving, and living life my way + by my own strength, the Lord met me in the middle of my mess. in my office at work. i was sitting there, absentmindedly thinking [aka: worrying] about something when i just felt His presence so strongly.

::  there are certain aspects of motherhood i wish i could change, but because i'm a working mom, i'm learning to accept that our ways - though different from others - are what work best for our family.

::  sometimes God shows up in a target bathroom.

::  i made a point to write down three good things from the day. this habit is great on those days when life feels rough.




ON THE BLOG

Q1 word: balance.
currently | january 2018.
a happy list.
when God shows up in a target bathroom.
+  notes from the weekend  //  vol 1 + vol 2 + vol 3 + vol 4






GOALS


+  read two books  //  i finished four! 

+  gather medical + tax info  //  yep. it helps that i'm a bookkeeper, so these things aren't hard. 

+  schedule a hair appointment  //  goodbye, white trash roots. 

+  write down three good things from the day  // 

+  get in the Word  //  i ordered a new bible. it's a start.  




Monday, January 29, 2018

NOTES FROM THE WEEKEND | volume four.





-  jackson started saying DADA this weekend! my heart swells ten times when he says it because it's just so CUTE.

-  jared + i watched the new maze runner movie over the weekend. our very unpopular opinion: it was better than the final hunger games movie. i read all the HG books and loved them. (still do!) i did not read the maze runner series, so i didn't know the story or what was going to happen. i think i may read the series now though. i think when i know what's going to happen, that takes away from the movie just slightly, but i'm still always going to love the book more than the movie.

-  i had to take off work early on friday because our sitter was sick. although i am swamped at work, it was actually nice to relax for once. jackson doesn't take a nap with me in the evenings, so while he napped during the afternoon, i caught up on this is us. gahhhhhh. that show gives me all the feelings.



AROUND THE INTERNETS


+  i ordered a new bible. i love that the size isn't massive, yet there is enough space to jot down notes.

your smoothie survival kit. i bought a new blender to make baby food, but now i want to make all the smoothies!

+  if you are looking for a blog that isn't constantly posting "10 tips" + "5 ways", michelle is your girl. she is witty + honest + her writing is just wonderful.

+  volume two of sunday inspiration is on my instagram hightlights if you want to check it out. or not. it's whatevs.

+  i am loving the new podcast, women's work.




Saturday, January 27, 2018

A HAPPY LIST.




worship music. my space heater at work. COFFEE. listening to podcasts at work. chicken salad. 
listening to jared + jackson play in the next room. reading good books. the prettiest planner. 
writing down three good things - no matter how big or small - at the end of each day. sunshine + sixty degrees. 
knowing that there will be flowers blooming in less than two months. date night with husband.







Friday, January 26, 2018

WHEN GOD SHOWS UP IN A TARGET BATHROOM.



my sister-in-law, nieces, and i had a girls' night yesterday. we ate chipotle + shopped + made a quick stop by target.

jackson had a dirty diaper, so jill + i went to the bathroom to change him. as i was throwing the diaper away, she noticed a hair was wrapped around his toe. my heart sank. there was an article floating around FB months ago about an incident where a hair had got wrapped around a baby's toe, and he ended up losing the toe. i'm not sure if this was fake news, but it was crazy enough that jared + i obsessively checked his feet for days.

i was trying not to panic + cry. jackson was hysterical. rightly so. the hair was so tight around his little toe. i started silently praying for God to make a way because i didn't know what to do. we each tried to get it, all to no avail. jill got out her pocket knife and after what seemed like an eternity, it finally snapped off.

relief flooded over me like a tidal wave. i comforted jackson as we walked around, and homeboy was fine. he just wanted to look around + play with his binkie. i felt the guilt rising up, but i refused to give it life. instead i gave praise to the Lord as i rocked jackson to sleep when we got home.

i know that this story + my reaction may seem dramatic. i'd agree on most days. but the last two weeks of my life have been so sweet with the Lord. He's been showing up and moving mountains in places + circumstances where i've felt lost.

even in a target bathroom.



Monday, January 22, 2018

NOTES FROM THE WEEKEND | volume three.



 
-  we finally took our christmas tree down this weekend.

-  jackson is sooooo close to crawling. there were several moments that i held my breath because i thought he was about to crawl. i have conflicting emotions. on one hand, i'm excited that he's progressing + growing, but on the other hand, time is flying, and i just want my baby to be little forever.

-  we had a lazy sunday. it was glorious + restful + much needed. we opened the windows + took jackson outside. it was one of those slow days where your soul has room to breathe.




AROUND THE INTERNETS

this episode of the lazy genius podcast was so good for my mama soul.

this blog has lots of easy recipes that i cannot wait to try. [especially this + this + this]

this video makes me cry-laugh every. single. time.

+  i cannot wait to get this book in the mail!

+  i shared some sunday inspiration on my instagram.



A WEEKEND HAPPY LIST

eating cake for breakfast. taking a drive to get coffee. baby cuddles. hearing jared sing to jackson. sixty degrees + open windows. hanging out with our people. this song. second + third cups of coffee. reading. strawberries + coconut whipped cream. fresh air. sushi. chocolate pea milk. fun dinosaur socks.



Monday, January 15, 2018

NOTES FROM THE WEEKEND | volume two.





-  i inadvertently started using less social media last week. i didn't intent to take a break, but i didn't mind it either. i replaced all that mindless scrolling with reading books. i've finished three books this month already; i read three books total last year.

-  i had sort of a come to Jesus moment last week. i've been open on the blog about my struggles with motherhood. when it all came crashing down last week, i realized a lot of my issues are rooted in comparison. my thought process was often some form of: this mom is doing this and that mom is doing that, and i'm doing something different, so that must mean i'm doing something wrong? i have made a point to pray whenever i have those thoughts creep into my mind. my hope is that God will rid me of this sin + doubt + shame and show me my identity isn't in titles, but in Jesus alone. i still have a long way to go, but i've already seen heart shifts that only He can do. 

-  after months of prayers, jared was promoted to a new position at work. it's still on second shift, but this sets him up for a better chance at getting first shift in the future. we are so excited, and even better: he will be training is on first shift for the month of february!

-  jackson started babbling MAMAMAMAMA this weekend. i'm not quite convinced he's saying mama, but i still love it. 



AROUND THE INTERNETS

if today is hard.

+  "people are constantly posting things to make themselves feel like superior moms, like articles confirming why they do what they do is the absolute best choice and why everything else was terrible and damaging to our little darlings."  this article was spot on.

+  i want to try this latte. #HPforever





Tuesday, January 9, 2018

Q1 WORD: BALANCE




by mid-december, i usually know what my word/phrase for the year will be. my yearly goals are set. my powersheets are filled out + ready to go by january first. well... december came + went. and i had nothing. nada. the past two weeks have been so stressful for me. between the holidays, ringing in the new year, suffering a from a severe case of hives, and knowing that january is the busiest month of my work year... i felt like i was barely keeping my head above water. and it's only january ninth, guys.

but then i heard that sweet whisper: not your strength, but Mine. and it's in that moment i realized i've been trying to survive on my own strength for months. half-hearted prayers here + there, disconnected from worship + scripture - oh, Lord. bind my wandering heart to Thee.

as i had this revelation from the Lord yesterday at work, i felt the chaos lift slightly. it reminded me of a song we sing at church: i call Your name. Lord, You reply. You bring your kingdom and stand by my side. in this season, i've known the Lord was always with me. there were other times of wandering like this in my life. in every season, i know He is still God.

as i was working on my powersheets prep last week, i realized that this year, i want to focus on three months at a time. as a bookkeeper, the quarters of the year are important. three months seems far more manageable than twelve, right? after some thought + looking at the different areas of my life, my word for Q1 of 2018 is BALANCE. 

at first, i was like- really? balance. how.... boring. but then the Lord started showing me areas of my heart + my life that needed some balancing. i'm trying to juggle so much. faith. marriage. motherhood. work. friends + family. keeping a home. laundry. i just need to find some... you guessed it: balance.

that looks like less mindless scrolling of all social media, which i have started implementing recently. reading more books. [i've already finished one this week!] tidying up at the end of the day when jackson is [maybe] asleep for the night. working hard when i'm at my job. maybe putting in some overtime to help with the extra load. figuring out good meals to eat. loving jared well. starting a load of laundry when i get up in the mornings.

all while all those tasks will help balance the everyday stresses, what ultimately matters is my relationship with the Lord. that's the foundation of my life. when i'm rooted in scripture + communicating with Him, everything else will fall into place.


Monday, January 8, 2018

NOTES FROM THE WEEKEND | volume one





-  after weeks of struggling with a severe case of hives, i finally found relief this weekend! my doctor upped my meds, and it seems to be working. i'm still not sure if it's because i went a little [okay...a lot] cray with the reintroduction of dairy into my diet, or if it's because i am legit allergic to it now. either way, i am thankful to not be itching. it was the worst.

-  we had a wedding saturday afternoon, and afterward, we decided to have a night in for once. saturdays are typically our date nights because of jared's work schedule, but it was so nice to just hang out with husband, rock jackson to sleep early, and read for awhile.

-   i am still working on my powersheets prep for the new year. i have narrowed down the areas i want to focus on this year, but i was having difficulty with my word/phrase for the year. in the past, it was already swirling around in my head by december. this year, i felt the Lord nudging me to focus on everything by quarter. [as a bookkeeper, this made my heart sing with delight.] so my word for Q1 of 2018 is BALANCE.

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AROUND THE INTERNETS

+  i finished eleanor oliphant is completely fine over the weekend. such a cute book! i love her personality + literal-ness. i was on the wait list for months, so i devoured this book pretty quickly. [did you know that you can place holds on e-books? i used to be a "physical copy only!" hater, but it's just so much easier to balance a baby + a kindle.]

+  my friend amanda of the lady okie blog shared her thoughts on going back to work after baby #2. it was hard for me to go back to work after having jackson, but i have zero guilt about it these days. amanda also shared this article, and these words made me want to take out a billboard ad + plaster them all over for everyone to see:  "i have to wonder if we haven’t traded one idol for another, if we haven’t swapped out the caricature of the empowered feminist for the caricature of the domestic goddess." although after i linked this, i started to read some of the comments, and now i want to punch someone.

+  i love this episode about cleaning on the simple show podcasts. fun fact about me: i love tidying up our home at the end of each day. i know... so nerdy! but it gives me life in such a weird way. i also really love vacuuming. i just ordered a really nice, fancy shark vacuum cleaner, and it arrives this week, and i cannot contain my inner danny tanner! 

this tweet is EVERYTHING. 



Wednesday, January 3, 2018

CURRENTLY: JANUARY 2018





STARTING:  to set my goals for the new year. in years past, i've set random goals like read xx books, but this year i want to focus on six areas of my life: faith, marriage, jackson, creativity, work, and home tending.  


HOPING:  for lots of things: hoping jackson + i start feeling better soon. [we have colds] hoping that i'm not allergic to dairy now because i'm covered in hives. hoping for a shift change at jared's job. hoping for a really short winter because -4 degrees is just stupid.


SCHEDULING:  not very much actually. january is the start of tax season, so my days look pretty much the same until april: work, home, repeat. i will be working saturdays this year, and even though i'll miss my boys, i also really love my job. there is actually one thing i need to schedule soon: a hair appointment. these roots be hideous, y'all.


READING:  eleanor oliphant is completely fine.  i read three books last year. yikes. but - you know - i had a baby, so there's that. i don't have a set number for my reading goal. it isn't really about hitting the number as much as it's about taking time to read instead of mindlessly scrolling social media or browsing netflix for an hour.  


PLAYING:  alllllll the podcasts! they have taken over the radio in my car. i couldn't tell you the last song i listened to because podcasts are my jam right now. my favorites are the popcast + the simple show. i just started listening to the next right thing + that sounds fun.




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