Monday, January 15, 2018


-  i inadvertently started using less social media last week. i didn't intent to take a break, but i didn't mind it either. i replaced all that mindless scrolling with reading books. i've finished three books this month already; i read three books total last year.

-  i had sort of a come to Jesus moment last week. i've been open on the blog about my struggles with motherhood. when it all came crashing down last week, i realized a lot of my issues are rooted in comparison. my thought process was often some form of: this mom is doing this and that mom is doing that, and i'm doing something different, so that must mean i'm doing something wrong? i have made a point to pray whenever i have those thoughts creep into my mind. my hope is that God will rid me of this sin + doubt + shame and show me my identity isn't in titles, but in Jesus alone. i still have a long way to go, but i've already seen heart shifts that only He can do. 

-  after months of prayers, jared was promoted to a new position at work. it's still on second shift, but this sets him up for a better chance at getting first shift in the future. we are so excited, and even better: he will be training is on first shift for the month of february!

-  jackson started babbling MAMAMAMAMA this weekend. i'm not quite convinced he's saying mama, but i still love it. 


if today is hard.

+  "people are constantly posting things to make themselves feel like superior moms, like articles confirming why they do what they do is the absolute best choice and why everything else was terrible and damaging to our little darlings."  this article was spot on.

+  i want to try this latte. #HPforever

Tuesday, January 9, 2018


by mid-december, i usually know what my word/phrase for the year will be. my yearly goals are set. my powersheets are filled out + ready to go by january first. well... december came + went. and i had nothing. nada. the past two weeks have been so stressful for me. between the holidays, ringing in the new year, suffering a from a severe case of hives, and knowing that january is the busiest month of my work year... i felt like i was barely keeping my head above water. and it's only january ninth, guys.

but then i heard that sweet whisper: not your strength, but Mine. and it's in that moment i realized i've been trying to survive on my own strength for months. half-hearted prayers here + there, disconnected from worship + scripture - oh, Lord. bind my wandering heart to Thee.

as i had this revelation from the Lord yesterday at work, i felt the chaos lift slightly. it reminded me of a song we sing at church: i call Your name. Lord, You reply. You bring your kingdom and stand by my side. in this season, i've known the Lord was always with me. there were other times of wandering like this in my life. in every season, i know He is still God.

as i was working on my powersheets prep last week, i realized that this year, i want to focus on three months at a time. as a bookkeeper, the quarters of the year are important. three months seems far more manageable than twelve, right? after some thought + looking at the different areas of my life, my word for Q1 of 2018 is BALANCE. 

at first, i was like- really? balance. how.... boring. but then the Lord started showing me areas of my heart + my life that needed some balancing. i'm trying to juggle so much. faith. marriage. motherhood. work. friends + family. keeping a home. laundry. i just need to find some... you guessed it: balance.

that looks like less mindless scrolling of all social media, which i have started implementing recently. reading more books. [i've already finished one this week!] tidying up at the end of the day when jackson is [maybe] asleep for the night. working hard when i'm at my job. maybe putting in some overtime to help with the extra load. figuring out good meals to eat. loving jared well. starting a load of laundry when i get up in the mornings.

all while all those tasks will help balance the everyday stresses, what ultimately matters is my relationship with the Lord. that's the foundation of my life. when i'm rooted in scripture + communicating with Him, everything else will fall into place.

Monday, January 8, 2018


-  after weeks of struggling with a severe case of hives, i finally found relief this weekend! my doctor upped my meds, and it seems to be working. i'm still not sure if it's because i went a little [okay...a lot] cray with the reintroduction of dairy into my diet, or if it's because i am legit allergic to it now. either way, i am thankful to not be itching. it was the worst.

-  we had a wedding saturday afternoon, and afterward, we decided to have a night in for once. saturdays are typically our date nights because of jared's work schedule, but it was so nice to just hang out with husband, rock jackson to sleep early, and read for awhile.

-   i am still working on my powersheets prep for the new year. i have narrowed down the areas i want to focus on this year, but i was having difficulty with my word/phrase for the year. in the past, it was already swirling around in my head by december. this year, i felt the Lord nudging me to focus on everything by quarter. [as a bookkeeper, this made my heart sing with delight.] so my word for Q1 of 2018 is BALANCE.



+  i finished eleanor oliphant is completely fine over the weekend. such a cute book! i love her personality + literal-ness. i was on the wait list for months, so i devoured this book pretty quickly. [did you know that you can place holds on e-books? i used to be a "physical copy only!" hater, but it's just so much easier to balance a baby + a kindle.]

+  my friend amanda of the lady okie blog shared her thoughts on going back to work after baby #2. it was hard for me to go back to work after having jackson, but i have zero guilt about it these days. amanda also shared this article, and these words made me want to take out a billboard ad + plaster them all over for everyone to see:  "i have to wonder if we haven’t traded one idol for another, if we haven’t swapped out the caricature of the empowered feminist for the caricature of the domestic goddess." although after i linked this, i started to read some of the comments, and now i want to punch someone.

+  i love this episode about cleaning on the simple show podcasts. fun fact about me: i love tidying up our home at the end of each day. i know... so nerdy! but it gives me life in such a weird way. i also really love vacuuming. i just ordered a really nice, fancy shark vacuum cleaner, and it arrives this week, and i cannot contain my inner danny tanner! 

this tweet is EVERYTHING. 

Wednesday, January 3, 2018


STARTING:  to set my goals for the new year. in years past, i've set random goals like read xx books, but this year i want to focus on six areas of my life: faith, marriage, jackson, creativity, work, and home tending.  

HOPING:  for lots of things: hoping jackson + i start feeling better soon. [we have colds] hoping that i'm not allergic to dairy now because i'm covered in hives. hoping for a shift change at jared's job. hoping for a really short winter because -4 degrees is just stupid.

SCHEDULING:  not very much actually. january is the start of tax season, so my days look pretty much the same until april: work, home, repeat. i will be working saturdays this year, and even though i'll miss my boys, i also really love my job. there is actually one thing i need to schedule soon: a hair appointment. these roots be hideous, y'all.

READING:  eleanor oliphant is completely fine.  i read three books last year. yikes. but - you know - i had a baby, so there's that. i don't have a set number for my reading goal. it isn't really about hitting the number as much as it's about taking time to read instead of mindlessly scrolling social media or browsing netflix for an hour.  

PLAYING:  alllllll the podcasts! they have taken over the radio in my car. i couldn't tell you the last song i listened to because podcasts are my jam right now. my favorites are the popcast + the simple show. i just started listening to the next right thing + that sounds fun.


linking up with anne of in residence