Saturday, May 31, 2014

a fire down in my soul that i can't contain.




before bed last night, i was teetering on the idea of quitting the blogging world. many factors have played a part in this feeling - a lack of creativity, hurtful words, busy schedule, comparison, and so on. but i woke up this morning with a new song in my heart.

to protect my heart, i have been posting recaps and content that's about as deep as our dried up pond. [to the reader who pointed that out - thank you. i need that kind of kick-in-the-butt eye-opener sometimes.] i can pinpoint the moments i started to change, because it wasn't just with this blog - it was in my day-to-day life, my attitude, and my interactions. i don't want to place blame or point fingers, so i am taking this as a learning experience from my Heavenly Father.  as ellie holcomb sings, "Your love will never change, and there's healing in Your name. and You can take broken things and make them beautiful."

vulnerability is one of the most beautiful things. to take the pain + hurt and share that with the world - that takes courage. my word of the year is lionhearted. up to this point, i have been more like guppyhearted. [that's not a word, but you get the idea.] that's where i'm lacking. i let the words of another shape my thoughts about myself. i let the backhanded comments seep into my heart and they festered. this caused me to close off my heart because who wants to put it out there for someone to bash and step all over it? surely not i. but that's no way to live.

i want to transition this space into a place where i share my heart and (from the feedback on the reader survey) more of my lifestyle. but i also want to document the memories i'm making in this season of life. there will still be recaps, but the content will be a mixture. this transition may take awhile. i have a busy june. [how is it june already?!] i guess this is my way of asking y'all to bear with me. i am not going anywhere. God is writing my story. His fingerprints are everywhere i look. there's a fire down in my soul that i can't contain. it roars with His love and redemption. He didn't put me on this earth to fizzle out. He created me to glorify Him and spread that fire.

and that's just what i plan to do.

Friday, May 30, 2014

22/52.



[week twenty-two of my fifty-two week self-portrait project]

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

currently.





creating
- more goals for my 101 in 1001 list.
- different content from recent inspiration.
- fun pages in my watercolor journal.

eating:  
- salads. one of my favorite things about warm weather!
- special k chili lime cracker chips. can't stop, won't stop.

drinking: 
- all the coffee. all the time.
- lots of water & sweet tea.

reading:
- the book of nehemiah
- the body book

watching:  
- as always, law & order SVU.
- breaking bad, season two.

wanting: 
- a re-brand for this blog.  
- to incorporate more of my lifestyle into my instagram. i mean, flowers are great, but i need some variety.

playing:
- lots of country music. this album will be on repeat alllll summer long.

liking:   
- the new habit i've developed of writing down happenings, lessons, and thoughts from the day in my planner.

planning:
- falls creek menu, to-pack list, and everything in between.
- blog posts, thanks to these awesome printables.

anticipating:      
- falls creek. (can ya tell what's occupying my time these days? we leave in 2 weeks!)
- vacation bible school. (it's the week following falls creek. i'm gonna be one tired girl.)
- our second annual fourth of july party/mama's birthday bash.

craving:
- chipotle, forever and always.

loving:
- this wonderful rain!
- how on point the study of nehemiah is for my life right now.

needing:
- to write back to some pen pals. if you're one of them, i haven't forgot!

learning: 
- so much from the blog life e-course.   
- i cannot fight other peoples' battles.
- people pleasing is a debilitating way to live.

smelling: 
- lilac & vanilla.

wearing: 
- shorts & tees. the guys' section at pacsun has the best t-shirts.
- cute sandals from target.

thinking:
- about my word for the year.

bookmarking:
- summer drink recipes.

giggling:    
- about actually having to write this post. small town livin' is odd sometimes.

feeling:
- inspired, excited, a little frazzled, but hopeful.

thankful for:
- how rain makes drinking coffee ten times better.
- a day off.
- the opportunity to work with the youth at church.
- scripture that breathes life into my heart.
- people who volunteer their time to help out with the youth group.


Monday, May 26, 2014

the weekly.




SNAPSHOTS
memorial day. we are the land of the free because of the brave.
smoothie. i sipped on a sunny day smoothie on the drive home after a long day of shopping.
coffee & peonies. my grandma picked those pretty peonies from her own garden. 
sandals. these are the most comfortable sandals i own. #targetdoesitagain


THE LITTLE THINGS
- little conversations with my cousin on MONDAY.
- cooling off on a hot TUESDAY afternoon with a lemon berry slush. 
- WEDNESDAY night youth group.
- getting off work early on THURSDAY.
- a FRIDAY full of shopping, good eats, and laughs with mama.
- scripture study, list making, and multiple cups of coffee on a perfect SATURDAY morning.
- a lazy SUNDAY afternoon watching harry potter and sports.


AROUND THE INTERNET
why american-ized dating is screwing up our marriages.
this article via relevant. YES.
a sweet, little reminder.
  

IN CASE YA MISSED IT
> i shared my 101 in 1001 project.
> i graduated high school ten years ago.

Thursday, May 22, 2014

21/52.


[week twenty-one of my fifty-two week self-portrait project]

Tuesday, May 20, 2014

ten years.


 one of my senior pictures. that was my 'model pose'. [i'm cringing and laughing at the same time, y'all.]



i attended a family friend's high school graduation over the weekend. ten years ago last week, i graduated high school.

ten years.
a decade.
it doesn't seem possible.

in my yearbook, my future plans were to "go to college with my friends, get married, and have little mini-me's."
of those three plans, none of them happened.
NONE.

i was going to write a list of all the things i wish i would've known when i was in high school. like knowing that school is not just about text books and quizzes and useless information. whether or not you remember the square root of pi or what a prepositional phrase it isn't as important as learning to work hard and apply yourself. i could have saved myself a lot of tears and pain had i known that mean girls are really just insecure girls. they prey on the shy, mask the jealousy in hurtful words, and disguise their lack of confidence in barely-there clothing. i could have benefited from choosing friends wisely because who you hang out with - that influence - it matters. it would've been kind of funny to know (although it didn't apply to me) that the real world doesn't care if you were popular or prom queen. i wish i would've known to appreciate and say thank you to teachers because they are heroes. i could have saved myself a lot of heartache, tears, and more tears had i know true love doesn't happen in high school. lust and emotions and hormones will convince you that he is the one, but he does good to remember to change his underwear everyday. commitment isn't a high priority.


but coulda, shoulda, woulda didn't happen. life is learning as you go, because mistakes will be made. (if you're me, they'll be made a lot.) but i think the most important lesson i've learned - the one i will tell my kids someday - is from the words of proverbs 3:5-7:


trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.  
in all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.  
be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and turn away from evil.



Monday, May 19, 2014

the weekly.




SNAPSHOTS
izze. this was my first time trying this popular sparkling drink. it's my new summer staple.
stationery. target is killing the stationery game right now.
boomer. that face is killin' me.
chipotle burrito bowl. or as i like to call it: heaven in a bowl.


THE LITTLE THINGS
-  starting the new she reads truth plan on MONDAY.
-  great conversation and bww on TUESDAY evening after helping a friend out.
-  happenings from WEDNESDAY evening reminded me why it is important to find my worth in Jesus, not people's opinions.
-  the afternoon off work on THURSDAY was spent shopping + eating chipotle. [and cheering for the thunder!]
-  on FRIDAY night, i watched a family friend graduate from high school.
-  mama + i had a lovely SATURDAY evening.
-  i had the best sammich of my life SUNDAY night.


AROUND THE INTERNET
+  these awesome planner printables & this blog planning printable.
+  i am loving this photography blog.
i want crazy.
 

IN CASE YA MISSED IT
> a not-so-funny reason for cheating on week twenty of my 52 week self-portait project.
> keep up with posts on blog lovin'.

and i had the best day with you today.










mama and i had a girls' day on saturday. we ate at our favorite mexican restaurant and indulged in a s'more quesadilla. after dinner, we ventured across town to the park. we walked and talked and stopped at the pond to watch the geese. mama got the idea to play on the swings. i know it's just a swing set, but there was something about that simple moment - swinging in the park with my mama - that i needed. mama noticed the lovliest little flowers by the creek and of course i had to snap a few [dozen] pictures.

it was the best evening. i will never take the little moments for granted. she is my best friend and my confidant and shopping partner in crime and mama all in one. there's a song on taylor swift's second album called the best day that reminds me of these little adventures with my mama.


hey, mama. i know you're reading this. just want you to know i love you, and i had the best day with you today. 

Thursday, May 15, 2014

20/52.




i walked to the pasture earlier this afternoon to take this week's picture. as i was walking toward a good spot, i spotted the most vile, scary, disgusting creature - a huge snake. i have never ran so fast in my life, y'all. so this week's picture is from the ones i took last week because you couldn't pay me to go anywhere near the pasture right now.

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

pinecone jewels.



there are a handful of people who have left a lasting impression during my short time here on earth. i am different because of them. their influence shaped me as a person, a woman and a follower of Christ. one of those people was my grandma gracie. she was so gentle and kind. she never met a stranger. she let you know she loved Jesus and you as well. i don't ever remember her being mad or without a smile on her face or a camera in hand.

five days before my thirteenth birthday, she went to be with Jesus. she not only made a difference in my life, but in the lives of everyone she met. there was not one open seat at her funeral. in fact, there were people standing along the aisles, in the hallways, and in the kitchen. hundreds of people filled our little church to remember the most wonderful woman i have ever known. 

even though she's been gone for over a decade, there are pieces of her everywhere i look. i see her in my daddy - he has her kind and gentle nature. i see her in shades of purple - it was her favorite color, as well as mine. and i see her in nature - she planted a few trees on our land. when i walk by her sunday school classroom at church, i remember learning the books of the bible and singing songs.

if you follow me on instagram, you know about the pinecone tree. grandma gracie lived next door to us. she planted a pinecone tree next to her house many years ago. i never really gave it much thought until i started getting serious about photography. now it's one of the largest trees on our property and a sweet reminder of the most godly woman i have ever known. her middle name was jewel, so i fittingly made the hashtag #pineconejewels.



Monday, May 12, 2014

the weekend four.




- she reads truth: nehemiah packet.  today starts the SRT nehemiah plan. i am so happy the ladies released a study pack including a journal because i am a chronic note taker. i write down everything, especially when studying scripture.

- OKC thunder. win or lose, i'm still a fan.

- that oklahoma sky.  as i was mowing, i looked up and noticed the sky was the most vibrant blue i have ever seen. the clouds were at their best, looking like puffs of cotton candy. i know everyone thinks their state has the best skies, but in my opinion, oklahoma's takes the cake.

- iced coffee.  my mama surprised me saturday morning with a delicious vanilla iced coffee. [she's pretty rad.] i plopped myself down on the couch and went through a lesson of the blog life course. there is so much information packed into each lesson. it's one of those things where i can go back and re-read it and learn something new & get fresh perspective and inspiration. money well spent if you ask me.

Friday, May 9, 2014

19/52.


[week nineteen of my fifty-two week self-portrait project]

Thursday, May 8, 2014

iphoneography.














all photos shot with my iphone 5; edited with VSCOcam.

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

my 2014 in polaroids // part two.



week ten: pine cone  //  week eleven: daffodils  //  week twelve: grape hyacinths

week thirteen: apple blossoms  //  week fourteen: flowering quince  //  week fifteen: gorgeous i-don't-know-what-it's-called tree

week sixteen: kwanzan cherry tree  //  week seventeen: indian paintbrush  //  week eighteen: tiny white flowers

Monday, May 5, 2014

the weekend four.




- blog life.  i bought ABM's blog life e-course. the material is so detailed and informative. i am so excited to work through this course and find some inspiration for this little blog. (if you need more convincing - i've already learned so much and all i've read is the introduction.)

- a beautiful day.  the weather in oklahoma is finally starting to warm up. but in true okie fashion, instead of breezy seventies, it's record-high nineties. but i am not complaining one bit! bring on the sunshine, strawberry lemonade, warm breezes, sweet tea, shorts, and flip flops.

- starbucks cup.  weird tidbit about me: i save my starbucks' cups. after i'm finished with my drink, i rinse it out and reuse it. of course, it's usually filled with sweet tea because my mama's tea is the bomb dot com, y'all.

- the girl behind the lens.  the last week has been nothing short of awesome. God revealed Himself on multiple occasions and situations, and i just sit back and praise Him name.



18/52.



[week eighteen of my fifty-two week self-portrait project]

Thursday, May 1, 2014

a month in review // april.




learnings:
- there is something about country music + sweet tea + sunshine.
- seemingly ordinary moments are shaping me. they are all significant to this life story He is writing.
- a little chaos is okay.
- embrace this beautiful, crazy, messy, wonderful life God has created.
- when i get too busy or lazy - or whatever excuse i come up with - to spend time with Jesus, i give the enemy a foothold for sneak attacks.

happenings:
- i went blonde.
- took a little road trip to the azalea festival in muskogee.
- revival at church. youth night was SO. GOOD.
- bye to tax season! hallelujah.
- attended meagan's wedding with some of my favorite people.
- one of my photos was featured on ABM!
- copious amounts of mexican food were consumed.
- spring came with all its glory and beauty.

popular posts:   tulips & prayers  //  explore: spring delights  //  photoshop actions from ABM  //  my 2014 in polaroids (part one)