ten years.

 one of my senior pictures. that was my 'model pose'. [i'm cringing and laughing at the same time, y'all.]

i attended a family friend's high school graduation over the weekend. ten years ago last week, i graduated high school.

ten years.
a decade.
it doesn't seem possible.

in my yearbook, my future plans were to "go to college with my friends, get married, and have little mini-me's."
of those three plans, none of them happened.

i was going to write a list of all the things i wish i would've known when i was in high school. like knowing that school is not just about text books and quizzes and useless information. whether or not you remember the square root of pi or what a prepositional phrase it isn't as important as learning to work hard and apply yourself. i could have saved myself a lot of tears and pain had i known that mean girls are really just insecure girls. they prey on the shy, mask the jealousy in hurtful words, and disguise their lack of confidence in barely-there clothing. i could have benefited from choosing friends wisely because who you hang out with - that influence - it matters. it would've been kind of funny to know (although it didn't apply to me) that the real world doesn't care if you were popular or prom queen. i wish i would've known to appreciate and say thank you to teachers because they are heroes. i could have saved myself a lot of heartache, tears, and more tears had i know true love doesn't happen in high school. lust and emotions and hormones will convince you that he is the one, but he does good to remember to change his underwear everyday. commitment isn't a high priority.

but coulda, shoulda, woulda didn't happen. life is learning as you go, because mistakes will be made. (if you're me, they'll be made a lot.) but i think the most important lesson i've learned - the one i will tell my kids someday - is from the words of proverbs 3:5-7:

trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.  
in all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.  
be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and turn away from evil.


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