may 27, 2022

 

jackson is spending the night with my in-laws.

i find myself walking by his room;

i take a quick glance inside.

that familiar feeling starts to bubble in my chest-

a mixture of anxiety + longing.

so i begin clean his room.

i vacuum + straighten toys + fold clothes.

and once i am finished,

i grab my book + a medicine ball tea

and read.

and sip.

and read.

and sip.

as the sun sets outside his window,

i feel that other familiar feeling-

peace.

this is what surrender looks like,

at least for me,

in this season, in these days.